life fuel

have you ever wanted to just get away from it all? From the stresses and busy moments of life? Sometimes i wish life had a pause button. It's hard to keep up with it sometimes. Recently I have been really tired and unmotivated. I mean really. A few weeks ago i have spent 2 days in bed because I felt that tired- i was physically sick and tired. It was like God and (my body) had to let me get to that stage to make me stop. I'm a busy person. I never rest (much!) I'm always on the go- school, revison, work, church, friends, family, serving, school, revison, chores, church, family, friends... i never seem to stop! And the exam season didn't make it any better. i spent most of the day with my head down working hard... it's a good theory in practice but it didn't work out that way. I reached the point where i felt numb, tired and dead (not physically). God certainly knew how to get my attention! it was like he was saying- "Ruth chill out, rest in me because your energy and 'life fuel' comes from me, come and spend some time with me." i had also been neglecting my devotions. ( yeah that was not such a good idea!) I needed to think about what i was doing, slow down and get back with God.

Genesis 2:2 (New International Version)
By the seventh day God had finished the work he had been doing; so on the seventh day he rested from all his work.

I like to think that I am following God's example. well to do that I had to stop. Besides the whole world was not sucked into a black hole when God rested- so i'm sure the world be okay if i rest.

Genesis 4:12 (New International Version)
When you work the ground, it will no longer yield its crops for you. You will be a restless wanderer on the earth."

Sound familar? I had worked my "ground" so hard that i was no longer yeilding "crops" in my life.

Matthew 11:29 (New International Version)
Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

I really did find rest when i slowed down and spent some time with God. I found unexplainable rest and refreshment. I realised that i was only able to keep going with his spirt and "life fuel". In him i am alive. In him i can live.